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[29 Dec 2006|03:27pm] |
happy holidayz!!!!!
xoxo
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[13 Oct 2006|09:18pm] |
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oh my GOD its been a looooong time.....
ok, so whats up in the life of shawna?
well roy and i moved in together...and we're back together. yeah one night stand guy, then we got together, broke up and now we're back together......hes amazing. he makes me appreciate life so much more. we live in an apartment in albany NY and its amazing. i have a cat named mu-shu (hahaha) and life is good. i am in school. i am happy, yes i moved out but my mom is dating a wonderful man and she and i talk everyday and life is SO WONDERFUL. i love it, i havent been this happy in SO. LONG.
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[26 Jul 2006|03:23pm] |
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Soooo Im in tennessee visitng kelly and christoph......who are ENGAGED!!! daaaayum everyones growin up. but its cool, i love them.
im here until sunday then im comin home. its dreadfully hot but im so glad to see my friends.....i havent seen them since august :(((((
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[05 Jul 2006|01:55pm] |
oh life, yer throwin me for a loop
:sigh:
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[07 Jun 2006|04:40pm] |
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oooooooooooooooook.
where to start.....?
1] mom and i moved out from my auntie's place. to a nearby apt complex which was nice.
2] mom and i have huuuuuge fight. which ends up in her kicking me out.
3] i go to tish's house. in a drunken haze i have 3 some with her and this guy josh.
4] wake up not knowing what happened, then tish screaming at me that i fucked her boyfriend, which apparently was josh which i did not KNOW was her boyfriend or that she even had one. she starts trying to hit me so i run for cover and wander about the city in 2 day old make up and no deoderant (stinky shawna)
5] go to roys house [one night stand guy/boyfriend/now ex boyfriend], tell him what happened. he breaks up with me but tells me i can stay with him until i get shit with mom figured out
6] stay with roy for 4 days
7] call my mom and she breaks down crying telling me to come home, so i do
8] come home to a beyond messy apt and messages from tish saying shes sorry and she loves me and blah blah. call her back and we make up
9] mom and i have a long talk and we discover that ny may not be the best place for us
so. ive done quite a good job of fucking my life up a bit and fucking up other peoples lives. im glad tish and i are friends again because she is such a doll to me.
anyway. im kind of bummed out right now. i didnt eat for about a week so my weights dropped and im trying to avoid any more hospital visits so im sitting here trying to eat a turkey sandwich. ive gotten about 1/3 the way through and im startin to feel kinda sick......not sure what to do with myself.
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[04 Jun 2006|01:59am] |
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whoa.... a lot has happened.
i'll explain later!!!!
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[03 May 2006|09:21pm] |
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so me n one night stand guy are an item now.
CRAZZY!!!
hes so rad. i cant believe it.
aaaaaahaha :smile:
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[17 Apr 2006|02:15pm] |
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
^_^
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[18 Mar 2006|11:01pm] |
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Ok, so why do i feel like a whore?
if u know me, and even if u dont, one thing you SHOULD know is that i DONT sleep around. i DONT do one night stands. sometimes ill do it with girls, because theres not a whole lot of risk involved.
anyway.....i went out with a couple coworkers of mine the other nite, and tisha. we went out to a club, i started to drink a bit, then we decided to go to this house party thing. at the bar i had a cosmo and 3 shots of vodka, i think. at this party i had two beers and......a daquiri i think. tisha and i were being kinda giggly/girly and there was some flirtation, and then this guy comes along and asks us to kiss. so, we do. then this guy brings his friend up and he and tisha start talking, we kiss for HIM (fucken guys) and then me + the first guy somehow made it to a bedroom where we fucked. i dont even remember if it was good. i DO know he used a condom because i found the wrapper in my shoe. i vaguely remember him going down on me and then i know we fucked, i remember a bit of that. and i guess tisha and the other guy fooled around but didnt fuck.
so i went home with tisha and her friend jackie and cried. i think part of it was because i was drunk but mostlyu because i felt like a whore.
but the reason i feel so bad is because i KNOW im not "like that". im not normally one of those grrls who just sleeps around. and thats why im so upset. but fuck......ive never really been so drunk as to where it impairs my decisions about when it comes to SEX. gawd.
i feel like such a scum bag. gah.
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[18 Mar 2006|04:18am] |
INSOMNIA SUXXXX...
='[
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[09 Mar 2006|02:27am] |
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i got laid
and now i feel like a whore.
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[02 Mar 2006|11:25am] |
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february 28th was bittersweet......it was mardi gras and i have never NOT spent it at home, in new orleans. it was odd to 'celebrate' it elsewhere.
some days are easier than others, but that day was a killer =[
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[23 Feb 2006|10:34pm] |
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[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. (meh sometimes)
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.
Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
School/Work
[ ] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school.
Embarrassment
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[ ] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public
Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[x] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed. (don't have any)
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[x] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans. (only every year of my life....till now.....=[ )
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[ ] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.
Relationships
[x] I'm single. [singleish]
[ ] I'm in a relationship of sorts.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[x] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger.
Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test
[x] I ran a red light
[ ] I've been suspended from school
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[x] I've shoplifted
Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[x] I've smoked weed
[x] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped X.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression. [ptsd but kinda the same thing]
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[x] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying.
Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[ ] I've held someone while they died
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[x] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.
Materialism
[x] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books. (Just Johnny the Homicidal Maniac)
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
Political/Social Attitudes
[ ] In general, I don't like people.
[ ] I'm a feminist.
[x] I'm outgoing.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[x] I'm Democratic.
[ ] I'm Republican.
[x] I'm liberal.
[ ] I'm religious.
[ ] I dress fairly modestly. (I really don't care what I wear >_> so I guess it sort of comes off 'modest')
Random
[ ] I can sing well
[x] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily. (Depends on the person)
[x] I watch the news. (Rather I read it on Yahoo)
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar. [not on here but if yer talking to me YESSS]
[ ] I am a sports fanatic
[x] I twirl my hair (If I'm bored >_>)
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[x] I love being neat
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I cook well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school. (if I had any or went to school)
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
[x] My answers are totally honest
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[23 Feb 2006|02:41am] |
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Can we go away
and never turn around again
On an escapade
and always keep the vision
Can we open out
and spread ourselves around the sand
Captivate the sun
keep the light till the world ends
Runaway
Runaway
Take away the wall
and break away my defense
Candle by our side
and never let the rain begin
We're a part of a plan
and it's already written
There is no other way
it's inside our every sense
Earth is our island
Karma, am I yours
is that your intuition
If that is your word
I'm the definition
In our destinies
that is what was missing
Echo in my mind
even through a distance
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i love this song
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[17 Feb 2006|01:56pm] |
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oh my gawd its suppsed to be 28 degreez tomorrow. hollyyy shiiiite.
so i think my mom and i found our own place. maaaybe?
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[08 Feb 2006|01:51am] |
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20 years ago
1. i was born!
2. uhmmm......i think my dad left my mom like 2 weeks after i was born
3. uhh i dunno
10 years ago I...
1. was 10
2. cut my hair super short
3. started taking an art class
5 years ago I...
1. was 15
2. was at the peak of my anorexia
3. never ate of 200 calories a day
3 years ago I...
1. was 17
2. starting to recover from anorexia
3. broke up with my first serious boyfriend
1 year ago I...
1. lived back home in orleans =[
2. was dating 2 people at once, 1 boy + 1 girl
3. started painting again
So far this year I...
1. have moved to nyc
2. broke up/got SCREWED OVER
3. started working at borders
Yesterday I...
1. slept in too late + was late for work
2. ate cake
3. nearly fell asleep on the bus
Today I...
1. showered
2. kissed my auunts kitty
3. did mah nails
Tomorrow I will...
1. see tisha =x
2. shop for shoes with tishaaaaa
3. go to work at 6pm
In the next year I will...
1. hopefully get a better job
2. get my own place/my mom and i will
3. buy a laptop!!!!
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[01 Feb 2006|11:06pm] |
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this weekend im going "upstate new york" (i dont kno exactly where that is :blush:) with some friends from work. someones relative has a cabin so we're gunna go up n get drunk and sex will probably happen and i intend on getting some action. it'll be fun tho, i cant wait to get awau from the city!! i need me some nature and fresh air!!
QOD:
what has been your fav. vacation to date?
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[21 Jan 2006|01:19am] |
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first things first.
new email: OhNoItsAnthrax@Gmail.com
har har.
so yeah. This girl i met, Tisha, we kinda fooled around tonight.
It was good.
really good.
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[20 Jan 2006|05:17pm] |
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i woke myself up this morning by puking =[
gross
QOD:
when was the last time u puked + why??
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[13 Jan 2006|01:59am] |
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uck so livejournal made me change mah password so now I bet you any money im gonna forget it and go insane and think Im going crazy or sum1 hacked into my account or some shizzz. i hate that.
i majorly got hit on at work today. by a really NASTY guy. i mean this guy was at least 40 (Im not exageratin) and he was suuuuuper skinny like grossly skinny, glasses, the whole nerdy get up. it was gross. he kept touching my arm and saying he liked my hair and some nasty shit. i nearly threw a fuckin dictionary at him to leave me alone. I was just restocking books doing my damn job and I get creepz like him alll over mee....ewwwww....:shudders:
i think ill start going back to the questions of the day even tho i dont get many answers......if any.... but theyre fun and they make me think. :shrug: so here goes.
QOD:
what do you like the most about your work? and the leats?
mine.....uhhh i love to read and i work at a bookstore. thats awesome. whats not awesome is people who dont look around for what they want. and bookstores are notorious for getting stinky old homeless people sleeping on our otherwise comfy chairs. and my work's no different. and they wont leave!!
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